Trust

One thing I haven't told many people is that it is very hard for me to trust because of past experiences I find it nearly impossible to trust anyone fully. Even when they are a good friend and I know I can trust them still a part of me doesn't. I desperately want to trust I just don't. When a friendship that I have does fail I do take it very hard. Rejection is one of my biggest fears and it's one of the most painful things have gone through and will always have to deal with through out life. Not all friendships last. Because of my moms death a few years ago friendships for me are vital because my friends are kind of like my family. I have had some very bad experiences in the past with being taken advantage of I love my friends and I like to take care of them. I would do just about anything to keep them happy. The problem I have is knowing where to draw the line and when to say no. One of my goals is knowing when I'm being taken advantage of. I want to know sooner but how do you predict?. How do you know?. I have some very good friends now and I desperately want to trust them because I love them and I hope that they love me just as much because I care about them.