My Friends

My friends are really special to me. If only they knew how special they were to me. Especially now this past year. I have come to understand the true meaning of friendship especially now. After losing my mother to cancer last year. The good friends sort of separated themselves from the bad. I was able to figure out that I really want in a friend and who I really want to spend my time with. My friends are sort of like my family but as time went on I sort of figured out that I can pick and chose my friends. That's not a bad thing and I dont have to appologize for it. I don't have to spend my time with people who don't really like me, use me and don't want me to be myself. I have changed as a person this past year in a good way. I have become more assertive and I have figured out how I want to be treated. I have figured out what I really want in a friendship. I am not desperate anymore for friends. Good things do come to those who wait. I have come to terms with the fact that I should be treated a certian way and not settle for anything less. I am not going to let people walk all over me anymore. Just because I am nice It doesn't mean I like to be pushed around anymore than the next person does. This last year in Best buddies was really different for me when I let the program sort of help me gain confidence. I opened myself up to people, learned to trust again and I found some good friends along the way. I like having adventures and getting out and doing things. I am loyal to people and very giving I like to try to be the best friend I can be. These friends in Best buddies are sort of like a second family to me. We have each others backs, we look out for each other and we take care of each other. That's what friends should do. Having Aspergers has made it more difficult for me to find friends. In the past some times I have made friends with out really thinking about it and have gotten myself into some not so nice situations. I have had friends before who tell me who and how to be. I have had friends that have walked all over me and used me because I am nice and i give them everything but instead they just take take take. I have learned it doesn't have to be that way. I can have friends and be treated with dignity and respect. I can be myself and I can pick and chose in life I have the freedom. When I have good friends I feel better. I have better self esteem more self worth and I am happy. This is how I want to live my life.